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这个飞速发展中的二线城市全城都在大兴建设，到处可见吊塔和机车，灰尘扬土的。

关注房价多过关注曼联，世俗化的生活开始，其实我不想这样。

武汉的902 路

北京的499路

昨晚我积攒了3年的QQ聊天记录被不小心删掉了，想死的心都要有了。我本来想着把QQ聊天记录一直留着，如果自己到了一定年纪开始总结我这一辈子的时候再拿出来做个参考。我一直有一个梦想就是到老了之后写本精彩的回忆录，到时候QQ聊天记录可以登上面。即使不写回忆录，到时候拿出老花镜泡杯茶坐在藤椅上读一读年轻时候的聊天记录也是一件很有趣的事情，但是杯具就在昨晚发生了，大学毕业这段时期的记忆估计也会随着QQ记录的删除一天天的淡忘。

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"Aren't you? Have a great time Richard!!!!! By the way, how did you get on facebook in China, I thought it has been blocked? "

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写在前面：临近三十，工作五年，有时候会想，自己退休以后会怎样？如果一定有一个偶像，那我要选弗格森。当然，这个年龄说偶像，其实失去所谓偶像的意义了。以此文纪念弗格森执教曼联二十年。

彼时已过了中秋，桂花也渐渐落尽。旧庭院里老黄猫，唆一声穿过杂树，跳过花盆瓦盏堆积的窗台，抢到墙壁的角落，张望四周，终于蜷着不动。

我？躺在客厅的藤椅上，怎样都睡不深沉。前日晚间的一场球赛，使我疲倦不堪，老来晚上睡不安稳，白天又始终昏昏欲睡。隔壁人家的钟声，自己家的猫叫，远处 几个人没来由的笑，都能让我心头一惊，从半梦中惊醒，发现报纸撒了一地，眼镜也落到地上，膝盖上不小心没盖上毯子，竟然有些冰冰的疼。将将65岁，我只剩 下频频回顾前尘：怎样的粉饰，才能使我的内心获得小小的满足和平安，而何人的安慰，才能令我坦然接受，这此后的晨昏昼夜，风雨秋冬，其实都不过是省略号或 省略号的重复，不论延续多久，无论表象或是内涵，大体相同再无二致。

那个人的65岁，却是那样不同。他的人生依然全速前进并不稍息：赛前笑容满面挥手致意，开场一言不发神色平静；为获得机会站直身体，为错失良机扼腕叹息， 为恶意的铲球向对手主帅怒吼，为后卫的失误脸色铁青，为莫名丢球愤愤吐掉口香糖。什么？这样的犯规都不判点球？平素说话口音混浊，此时的F字头英伦国骂， 响亮清晰。是吗？是球进了!欢呼拥抱，跳向场边，象个孩子一般，满面红光兴高采烈，心脏起搏器？就像吐掉的口香糖，早被遗忘。65岁的时候，光荣和梦想依 然在延续，对成功充满渴望，对斗争满怀激情。虽白发苍苍，纵齿牙动摇，在竞争最激烈的场地，在目光最聚集的舞台，他依然雄心勃勃不屈不挠，一秒钟上天堂， 九十分后下地狱。老来的人生倘能如此激昂残酷，充满悬念，意气风发几近癫狂，哪怕明天死去，又有何妨？

在午后昏暗的房间里，我努力去原谅自己。年少轻狂，懵懂无知，青年冲动，伤人累累，中年贪欲，利令智昏，老来畏缩，还偏偏要自鸣得意。年少时的梦想，被我 抛在何处？青年时的爱人，如今身在何方？那信誓旦旦白头到老的妻子，那份爱你一生不变的激情，我持续几年？那热血沸腾言之凿凿，不干出一番事业决不罢休的 雄心壮志，什么时候变成一声叹息?三十忘友却仍然一脸虚伪笑容，四十出轨还指天发誓绝无此事，真挚忠诚，无私友善，这些最初的执着，什么时候变成过往云烟 不忍回顾？什么时候我的人生需要刻意掩饰无法坦然视之？

那个人的一生，却是那样坦荡。\"死后只需要四个朋友抬棺\"，朋友从不嫌少，敌人决不厌多。\"最大的任务就是将他妈的利物浦从统治位置赶下来\",无 论需要多长的时间，从未放弃，怎不成功？二十年过去，他依然没有厌倦，\"我还想再干两年\"\;二十年过去，他忠诚无悔热情不减，\"曼联总是我的最爱 \".二十年时间，英甲变了英超，卡佩罗周而复始，肯扬变成敌人，休斯转成对手：他依然在那里，哪管身后口水滔天。

在夜幕来临之前，我环顾四周，惶惶不安，有什么可以留给后人，就身旁这些旧家具？我写了几篇文字，留在网上，没几个人看过，网站关闭，服务停机，我的回忆 于是剥离；我买过一橱杂书，妻子不喜欢看，孩子不喜欢看，搬家时候觉得麻烦，我的收藏随之远去；还有什么？当我离开这世界，还有什么，能让认识我的人们， 一不小心想起我？门前几棵水杉？窗外几盆兰花？还是那只，下雨天晚上投奔来的老黄猫？

那个人的一生，足够留下许多回忆。无论你爱他笑他恨他骂他赞他贬他，他挥之不去。布莱恩罗布森，马克休斯，坎通纳，施梅切尔，罗伊基恩，贝克汉姆，鲁尼，是决裂分手也好，是友好离别也罢，他无处不在。二十年年华老去，他留下无数经典，等身荣誉，满室锦标，一个传奇。

他莫非是个天才？不，他的成功从来不易，第一个冠军他用了四年；他其实大有来头？不，踢球时候，他籍籍无名。他向来位高权重？不，老板说了算，他只是打工仔。成就一切的，只是他的坚持与努力，忠诚和坦荡，雄心和勇气。

这些，我没有过么？曾经坚持，曾经努力，一度忠诚，一度坦荡，几多雄心，几许勇气，我何尝不曾有过，只是他做到极致。如果一个人必须有一个偶像，那我愿意把阿莱克斯弗格森作为偶像崇拜，他只拥有普通人的空空双手，但他的人生雄壮豪迈，磊落光明。

当黑暗吞没四周，只亮起昏黄的灯火，在秋夜的寒意里，唯一能使老来的我，感觉重新振奋激动不已的，或许就是那年轻时候的遥远念想：远隔重洋与一个苏格兰老 头同喜同哀，因为见证传奇延续而激动得全身颤栗。前不见古人，后不见来者，时间逝去，人物两非，天地悠悠，唯有那一份痴迷与狂热依稀留存，似有余温。夜更 深沉，寒气逼人，我遥想往事，悲欣交集，禁不住怆然泪下。

Richard Z. 说:
we are the king of the world!
Finbarr 说:
Yes we are indeed - lots of fun here in Manchester because City got beat and are in the relegation zone
Richard Z. 说:
it seems always like this
Finbarr 说:
Liverpool and Arsenal drew as well so that was good
Richard Z. 说:
btw, Finbarr, I heard that native people in Manchester supports City more than us? is that true? Although we are the most popular club on this planet
Finbarr 说:
No it's all very silly ! When City could no longer argue their corner with regard to football itself they started to argue other daft things.
Finbarr 说:
Like they claim United are not a 'proper' Manchester team because the ground is not wityhin the city boundary and claim all United fans are glory hunters from London
Finbarr 说:
It would seem that these silly things have made their way across to China even lol
Richard Z. 说:
i'm telling some stuff here passed among Chinese football fans. It is said working-class people always surports City, and white-collar people are United fans. Because Manchester was a industrial centre, therefore there is more blue-collared
Richard Z. 说:
is that funny? 
Finbarr 说:
it's rubbish, actually the United ground is an area called 'Trafford Park' which used to be the biggest industrial estate in Europe - so on the 'doorstep' of where the working classses worked, you can't get any more working class that Trafford Park
Finbarr 说:
What IS true is that nowadays all grounds are all-seater and you can't stand any more. Seat tickets cost more than standing tickets so the overall result is that there aren't cheap match tickets any more and so this makes it more difficult for lower wage earners to be able to buy tickets
Finbarr 说:
There's also what's known as 'corporate' tickets which is where tickets are paid for by company's rather than individuals. Company's will pay for their clients to have a meal and watch a game.
Finbarr 说:
For big companys it makes a lot of sense to spend a few hundred pounds to get friendly with someone who might be in charge of another company who spends millions with your company
Finbarr 说:
my friend had several tickest which he uses for this. Actually he works for a Casino company and they give the tickets to the serious gamblers, so he gives them a tickt which costs maybe £100 and they lose £10,000 in the casino - good deal for him
Finbarr 说:
Actually all his 'best' customers are chinese ! The Chinese are mad for gamblimg over here, is that a national trait ?
Richard Z. 说:
which means the fans in Old Trafford are not all REAL football fans or United fans?
Richard Z. 说:
thanks you, Finbarr, I knew a lot from you, I will save our chat history, it's much more better than some shitty journalist's articles here


2008年12月24日
Richard Z. 说:
hey, got bored in the office
Richard Z. 说:
how are you today? Finbarr
Finbarr 说:
maqrvelous thank you - do you celebrate Christmas at all in China - i guess not
Richard Z. 说:
oh, almost forgot, Merry X'mas
Richard Z. 说:
yes, people in big cities like Beijing do celebrate Christmas
Richard Z. 说:
you can meet foriegn friends everywhere in Beijing
Richard Z. 说:
even in the toilet last time, i met a British guy
Finbarr 说:
It's a very big deal over here, quite rediculous actually, people spend so much money. It's great for the kids to get presents but adults buy presents for each opther as well and basically everybody eats and drinks too much
Richard Z. 说:
and the young generation are westernized, we watch foriegn movies, eat KFC, adore Europe football super star and NBA stars, most of them look Christmas equal with Chinese Spring festival
Richard Z. 说:
yes, it's definitely the same here when we celebrate Spring Festival
Richard Z. 说:
maybe Christmas = Spring Festival in China

To live content with small means;
to seek elegance rather than luxury,
and refinement rather than fashion;
to be worthy, not respectable,
and wealthy, not rich;
to study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly;
to listen to stars and birds, to babes and sages, with open heart;
to bear all cheerfully, do all bravely,
await occasions, hurry never.
In a word to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious, grow up through the common.
This is to be my symphony.

        --- William Ellery Channing 1780